"He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy. "
Job 8:21
I believe there will be real joy in my life again soon. There is always great joy after a great sorrow. I'm just hanging on for this promise and I feel that it may come soon. Dail is talking of coming home and nothing could give me greater joy than this at the moment. When and if god restores him to me, all the pain and grief will be well worth it and my gratitude for the time of learning and growing will bring glory to the Father.
Karen
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Fitful Sleep
"I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety."
Psalm 4:8
I'm alone again tonight and found this verse. Dail stayed for the weekend but went back to the condo this evening so I am feeling sad and anxious and missing him greatly. I always sleep restlessly without him here. This verse reminds me that I am not completely alone and that God can take care of me whether Dail is here or not. Thank you, God for your love and sufficiency.
Karen
Psalm 4:8
I'm alone again tonight and found this verse. Dail stayed for the weekend but went back to the condo this evening so I am feeling sad and anxious and missing him greatly. I always sleep restlessly without him here. This verse reminds me that I am not completely alone and that God can take care of me whether Dail is here or not. Thank you, God for your love and sufficiency.
Karen
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Our Plans
I got this verse this morning in an email and thought I would share it. It struck a cord in me, especially because my mind is always planning and thinking about how things will go or should go, according to my desires. Here is a verse that tells us what the reality is.
"There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless, the Lord's counsel- that will stand."
Proverbs 19:21
No matter what we desire or hope for, we should always defer to God's plan. It is His will that will stand and not our own. This is something I hope to keep in the front of my mind while waiting on the Lord to work on me and my husband and our marriage.
Karen
"There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless, the Lord's counsel- that will stand."
Proverbs 19:21
No matter what we desire or hope for, we should always defer to God's plan. It is His will that will stand and not our own. This is something I hope to keep in the front of my mind while waiting on the Lord to work on me and my husband and our marriage.
Karen
Anxiety
I woke up feeling anxious today. This happens mostly in the early mornings when I wake up without Dail and also just before bedtime when I go to sleep without him. I used some medicinal help this morning as panic disorder needs a bit of treatment, but I also opened the bible and found these verses. They helped me greatly and I passed them on to Dail at work, because I know he is in for a difficult day.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7
This is what I need this morning, to have my heart and mind guarded by Christ. Later, both my daughters will be here for a visit, but for now, I'm alone except for a loving God who is working behind the scenes to comfort and sustain me through this separation.
Sunshine
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7
This is what I need this morning, to have my heart and mind guarded by Christ. Later, both my daughters will be here for a visit, but for now, I'm alone except for a loving God who is working behind the scenes to comfort and sustain me through this separation.
Sunshine
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Controlling Thoughts
"If our minds are stayed upon God, His peace will rule the affairs entertained
by our minds. If, on the other hand, we allow our minds to dwell on the cares
of this world, God's peace will be far from our thoughts. "
Woodrow Kroll
"For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith. "
Romans 12:3
"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things."
Philippians 4:8
This is one of the hardest things for me to do, to take every thought captive to God. To think on the good things and keep my mind on things above. It is so easy to get mired down in the problems of this world, especially for someone like me with a mental illness. Part of my condition includes racing thoughts. My minds hurries from on the thing to the next in a second, especially when I'm stressed or upset. Medication does help this but we all know that God is the Great Physician. Sometimes, thought intrude on my prayers and I have to forcefully, bring myself back to the task at hand. I always apologize to God when this happens, for my wandering mind. I know he understands. I have this disability for a reason, I know and someday I will know why. For now, I will trust that with this, He needs me to try a little harder when praying and reading scripture. I know the extra effort through adversity will bring Him glory.
Sunshine
by our minds. If, on the other hand, we allow our minds to dwell on the cares
of this world, God's peace will be far from our thoughts. "
Woodrow Kroll
"For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith. "
Romans 12:3
"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things."
Philippians 4:8
This is one of the hardest things for me to do, to take every thought captive to God. To think on the good things and keep my mind on things above. It is so easy to get mired down in the problems of this world, especially for someone like me with a mental illness. Part of my condition includes racing thoughts. My minds hurries from on the thing to the next in a second, especially when I'm stressed or upset. Medication does help this but we all know that God is the Great Physician. Sometimes, thought intrude on my prayers and I have to forcefully, bring myself back to the task at hand. I always apologize to God when this happens, for my wandering mind. I know he understands. I have this disability for a reason, I know and someday I will know why. For now, I will trust that with this, He needs me to try a little harder when praying and reading scripture. I know the extra effort through adversity will bring Him glory.
Sunshine
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Kindness
"Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you."
Ephesians 4:32
"Do not let kindness and truth leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good repute in the sight of God and man."
Proverbs 3:3-4
I read the lesson for tomorrow from "The Love Dare" and this lesson is about kindness and how we treat our spouse, not matter what the circumstance. All of us desire to be treated with kindness and this is a point where I have failed many times over the years. I've been wrapped up in my own needs and issues, that I wasn't always as kind to Dail or anyone else as I should or could have been. This lesson hits close to home because it falls right into place with the impatience and anger I've been allowing to control me. Tomorrow I will only have access to Dail by email and phone. I wont see him in person until Tuesday but I will reach out in kindness and patience when I email him or call. He is expecting a difficult day because of the lightning stike last week that damaged some equipment. His bosses will be breathing down his neck until the problem is fixed. I know some encouragement and kind words tomorrow may make his day a little easier. This is my goal. But not just kindness for Dail, but for everyone I encounter tomorrow.
Karen
Ephesians 4:32
"Do not let kindness and truth leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good repute in the sight of God and man."
Proverbs 3:3-4
I read the lesson for tomorrow from "The Love Dare" and this lesson is about kindness and how we treat our spouse, not matter what the circumstance. All of us desire to be treated with kindness and this is a point where I have failed many times over the years. I've been wrapped up in my own needs and issues, that I wasn't always as kind to Dail or anyone else as I should or could have been. This lesson hits close to home because it falls right into place with the impatience and anger I've been allowing to control me. Tomorrow I will only have access to Dail by email and phone. I wont see him in person until Tuesday but I will reach out in kindness and patience when I email him or call. He is expecting a difficult day because of the lightning stike last week that damaged some equipment. His bosses will be breathing down his neck until the problem is fixed. I know some encouragement and kind words tomorrow may make his day a little easier. This is my goal. But not just kindness for Dail, but for everyone I encounter tomorrow.
Karen
Patience
"Be completely humble and gentle, be patient, bearing with one another in love."
Ephesians 4:2
I've just started reading the book "The Love Dare" on which the movie "Fireproof" is based. One day into the 40 day process and I have already learned more about my part in my marriage issues. True, Godly love is patient. I am one of the most impatient people in the world. I can see now that because of my impatience with Dail and the separation, I'm only pushing him farther away because my love isn't giving him the chance and time he needs to work this out. Impatience is ultimately very selfish. I've been thinking about how much I need him and wanting him to come home NOW instead of bearing with him and trusting God to help him find the way. Nothing good ever comes from impatience. It causes anger and lashing out and hurtful things being said. I have a lot to apologize for, both to Dail and to God. I will continue to work on practicing patience, even as I move on tomorrow to the next day's lesson. If you or someone you know is struggling in their marriage, I highly recommend this book. I'm renting the movie "Fireproof" on Tuesday so that Dail and I can watch it together after dinner. I'll post more about it then.
Blessings,
Karen
Ephesians 4:2
I've just started reading the book "The Love Dare" on which the movie "Fireproof" is based. One day into the 40 day process and I have already learned more about my part in my marriage issues. True, Godly love is patient. I am one of the most impatient people in the world. I can see now that because of my impatience with Dail and the separation, I'm only pushing him farther away because my love isn't giving him the chance and time he needs to work this out. Impatience is ultimately very selfish. I've been thinking about how much I need him and wanting him to come home NOW instead of bearing with him and trusting God to help him find the way. Nothing good ever comes from impatience. It causes anger and lashing out and hurtful things being said. I have a lot to apologize for, both to Dail and to God. I will continue to work on practicing patience, even as I move on tomorrow to the next day's lesson. If you or someone you know is struggling in their marriage, I highly recommend this book. I'm renting the movie "Fireproof" on Tuesday so that Dail and I can watch it together after dinner. I'll post more about it then.
Blessings,
Karen
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